SO it has finally gotten to the time where we get to look for houses! I seriously didn't know what I was thinking but I really thought that it would be very simple process and we would either go with what we had found 6 months ago or we would be able to find something else easily and move in and it would all be over really quickly! Ya, well not quite that fast or even really that fun. We looked for houses for 4 weeks before stumbling on to 2 perfect houses and one build to suit. Believe me I have seen some of the most interesting (take this as stupid) floor plans on the planet and decorating schemes that made me wonder where these people came from! We even walked through one house that the bank had not been in yet to clean and these people had just left what ever they hadn't felt like moving, there was stuff (ok stuff is to nice, more like garbage and crap) everywhere!! I would post pictures of them but who knows if we will really end up with any of them so I am not getting my heart set on any of them. The 2 houses that we put offers in on (did I mention that) both are 4 bedrooms, but one is almost 600 sq ft bigger than the other, but the other has a 90% finished basement (it just needs flooring). So its a toss up. Both are short sales so we have to wait for bank approval on the price. However, one of them qualifies for the new bank response in 10 business days program that just went into effect. So who knows! I do need my kids to be moved in by the end of summer (I am not driving 45 min each way to get them to school any longer after the next 5 weeks are up!!!!!). Yes I am a bit at the end of my rope with everything. After 6 months of our very long commute, keeping the kids in their schools, and living with almost no storage space at all (including no dressers) I have had enough. I do just know that the lord knows this and he is making sure that things are still going according to his plan (and not mine). I do know that this having faith stuff is hard, but I am trying, and even sometimes succeeding. I know that my husband has thought me nuts sometimes, but some of the things that are keeping me going are simple but effective:
Listening to church music in the car- I am not talking hymns here but LDS music CD's (I finally had to buy more my kids where complaining that they where sick of the same songs) I think that they have actually calmed my kids down on our afternoon commute, which as you can imagine is not a real fun one.
Going to the temple once a week- I know for people who didn't go for years because we lived in Wyoming and there wasn't a temple close its pretty amazing, but we have been able to do a lot of work for our ancestors which has made it more rewarding.
Genealogy- this is when I can fit it in, but it energizes me knowing that I am doing something for those who went before me that they are unable to do for themselves. We were able to get all of the work done for my dad's grandparents family, now that they have all passed on, and reunite their family for the first time in a very long time. Plus we have even made strides on Andy's side as well.
Afternoons with Heather- My amazingly talented sister has been amazing enough to let me crash at her house between when I get out of work and when my kids get out of school. It has helped to refresh me so many times as we have helped each other to carry burdens or decorate or plan. The time that I spend with her soothes my soul, and helps me to be a better person. (Thanks Heather)
Family prayer and scripture study- I know when we are doing these like we should because it helps everyone in the house, even grandma and grandpa. We have been slackers lately with everything that has been going on and it is a noticeable difference. My goal for the next couple of weeks is to get us back on track, because its good for everyone.
I will keep you posted but for now I have tied a knot at the end of my rope and I am just swinging :)
